Ode to mania

Up at night blinking screaming silent shaking filled with light and love and joy

 

LOVE!
Selfish love of flesh of light of neverending moving of leaping from the bed to the floor running giggling and muffling obscenities
Of sex of the forbidden of leaping into the sky to become a new sun
A blazing star of fire and light sharing heat and illumination whether you want it or not

 

JOY!
The unchained flying joy of dancing in the rain daring begging the gods or nature or the emptiness of life to strike down
The threat and challenge back howling into the night intoxicated on adrenaline endorphins and the wondrous glory of life itself

 

LIFE!
Singing songs created on the spot
Discordant melodies of word salad phrasing slammed together like a car crash on some hot rainslick night
A pulse of the universe beneath my feet vibrating and echoing in the corridors of humanity
All hearts are connected!
All souls are one!

 

FASTER!
Trashcan fires burning beneath eyes talking faster faster faster never fast enough never hard enough
A bloated gluttony of life and experience shimmering across the night of stillness and silence

 

SILENCE!
An enemy that must be eradicated at all cost
Laughing chuckling chortling noise stuck in throat holding air hostage a shivering shower of shards of glass
The tink tink tink tinkling little noise of shattering emptiness killing boredom killing straight face stone be quiet tied down straight-jacketted rebellion

WE MUST BE FREE!

To falling down out of breath noises becoming too much pasted on smile growing tired fraying at the edges

Fear of an end
Reality smashing down extinguishing sun bringing order and peace and quiet
Sick vomit rushing up to meet you escort you out of the ride

Worn out alone standing in the rain on some cold nameless street