Disappear

How many times must I iterate
Get away
Don’t commiserate
Disappear

I don’t want your sympathy
Or your empathy
They’re not dear to me
Not here

And every night that I stay awake
Is a claim you stake
Its not a give, just take
You’re still near

Though I still laugh I wanna scream
I wanna say
I hate everything
But your tears

Shaking as I raise up fists
And now I’m yelling
To the heavens
There’s nothing within
There’s nothing within

Trembling I know it’s all a dance
For now I’m fighting
The truth will set in
And I’ll give in
Yes I’ll give in

Life is a ball, I’m underdressed
Always distressed
I look like a mess
Don’t I?

I never want you to say to me
“Try to see
The world more clearly”
Don’t try

How many ways must I tell you
To take a clue
It’s not me, it’s you
Look me in the eye

This man that stands here today
Says go away
Find another place to lay
Don’t ask why

I will destroy everything touch
Until my skin is calloused and tough
Until there’s nothing to discuss
It’s not enough
Never enough

For now I seem calm outside
But soon I will cast aside
Like Jekyll gives way back to Hyde
At least I tried
At least I tried

How many times must I implore
Leave before
You can take no more
Disappear