Caffinated Dreams

jittery as it goes
four shots of expresso and five cans of cola
as i try to sleep
i’m jumping at shadows and telling my mind that it’s time to wind down
but, like a good clock my mind just marches forward
marking the moments that i lay awake
imagining all the wonderful sleep that i’d be having if i could just
stop
stop my crazy brain from spinning off scenarios and ideas
things that i know won’t happen but my mind teams up with my ego
to trick me into believing
it gets to the point that i have a plan for an awesome cafe in my mind
i’m talking floor plans, business plan
i’m imagining the decor and what kind of music we play
(when the amazing set of eclectic personalities that i’ve imagined aren’t around)
i’m congratulating myself on my first year of being open and being happy to bo longer be in the red
when i catch myself
i’m dreaming again
i never learned to control that wild thing in my head
i never really accepted that i had to take what life has given me
i want to mug life and take what it’s got
because i’ve got a different outlook
day to day, i want to dream without sleep
i want to weave my ambition into other people’s nightmares
i want no, can’t and won’t to be stricken from my vocabulary
because i want to dream every day of my life.
i dream so strong that i can taste it
but my dreams arent strong enough
the daylight breaks them down
no, can’t and won’t come marching back and their angry
you see, there are so many dreams in this world
if you stacked them together and bound then in twilight you’d have a library
it would stretch from the farthest corners of the imagination
to the deepest recesses of faith
but it wouldn’t be enough
we need to crack open those books and burn them
burn them like the sun went out and we needed the heat
because only in the fires of effort and hard work do dreams take real form
those dreams can take the scrutiny of the jealous sun
they aren’t afraid to stare back
they challenge the daylight by saying
“we are real now”
because only sweat and toil can make it so
so ignore those people telling you to come back to reality
spend your days dreaming
then spend your nights making those dreams strong
my cafe will be real one day
all i need is a little hard work